Suspended in tribulation
just like the Suffocation song;
thirty years come and done gone, made long
(or longer) by comings, short, few goings on—

irony, misery and hypocrisy: 
specialities, or specials like restaurant menus;
(Christ alive I’ve tried, you name it);
the same in the end, will, unbent, unchanging;

stubborn as clouds, heavy with thunder, wonder.