Everything is embarrassing.

I feel like a dumb cunt,
Embarrassed for trying;
London; bleak, futile,
Bleakest at black dawn;
Workward, tad suicidal.

No futures, help, hope;
Piss money away trying;
Insomnia & overdrafts;
Fuck your awards, books
Your luck, class & work.

The point is: no point:
That’s art, friend, true;
It’s all so embarrasing;
Sobriety, a great enemy,
London, a great chasm.